Infinite Rage

More like frustration and certainly not infinite, but discrete frustartion dosen't have quite the ring to it.

The last week has been interesting. I don't mean in one aspect of my life, across all aspects it has been this way.

Gym time has been pretty low over the last week. Once on the weights and once on the treadmill. Although judging from my weight last Monday I am not eating enough to support the amount of exercise I was doing. Typically on Monday I am the heaviest, which I attribute to retention of water from eating poorly over the weekend. Last Monday I was down 4lbs from the previous Friday. When I weighed on Tuesday I was at the same point.

School, well it was an interesting week. We wrote our first linux test this week, I totally forgot we had it till the night before. Such a scatter brain this year so far. Be a miracle if I maintain the A+s. Either way I set about reviewing and making flash cards. I specifically targeted my weak areas. Things like how to get the kernel version number from the system I ignored even though I figured it would be on the test.

# 7 What is the version of the kernel you are running and what command did you use to find it.

No problem. Fire up a command prompt.
Linux:# root:/ $_
Keith: ver
Linux: Unrecognized command.
Linux: # root:/ $_
Keith: Fuck.

Yeah so apparently in DOS you use ver to get version and in Linux, you don't. Guess I didn't know how to do it afterall. On the positive side it was only 2 marks and I found the kernel number stamped on some system files.

The answer is "uname -r" btw.

Well I still think I did decently on it.

Geology and Geophysics were pretty standard this week. We did more accumap in geology lab and more survey layouts from seg-y headers in geophysics.

Oracle. Got our test back from last week. 48 out of 50. I'll take it. One wrong which I legitimately answered wrong and one wrong that I guessed at.

Well logging. The interesting course this week. As in ANCIENT CHINESE CURSE kind of interesting. Class starts as well as usual. Andreas has a new plan which I am happy to try. He has an assignment on his website. No trouble. He is going to go over it one at a time. This will force people to pay attention and follow what he is doing.

We do not have printouts, but we have two monitors. I open the assignment up on one and the log we are looking at on the other. I copy and past the log into paint so I can make notes. I also have facebook up. Initially I am having trouble keeping up with him, or that is how it feels at any rate. I feel he is all over in terms of speed. I can't guage how long I will have to write things down I start becoming frustrated right away.

We got through question #1, then we get to question #2. Brock puts up his hand and asks how to do #3. At my current frustartion levels this pushes me into an even deeped frustration. Can he not see that Andreas is about to show us that and we don't need to slow things down by asking him retarded questions.

#3 is a volume shale calculation. Basically we are figuring out a ratio between how much is at one point in the log compared to the difference between the sand line and the shale line.

The formula in the book reads....
Vclay = Vshale = (SPclean - SPlog)/(SPclean-SPshale)
where
SPclean = Max SP deflection from a nearby clean section
SPlog = log reading from the point of interest
SPshale = SP reading from the shale baseline.

On this log the scale is as follows
SAND SHALE
-90 -80 -70 -60 -50 -40 -30 -20 -10 0 10

No trouble, I have been reading a lot on this stuff I understand how the SP log works. I can't really read the board from where I am, but I go to town. I calculate 56% or something. He calculates around 44%. Hmm I think. I ask Natalie next to me what numbers he is using??

She tells me. I ask what he is using in each variable. And this is where the train loses it.
He is using Vshale = (4-(-40))/(4-(-82).
I am using Vshale = ((-82)-(-40))/((-82)-(4))

Ie I have used
SPclean = -82
SPshale = 4
he has gone the other way.

So now I am frustrated and I don't get why. I stand up and walk to the front to read the board myself. admitedly I am now in a POOR mood. I point at the board and ask where he got the 4 from???? He tells me it's the shale measurement. I ask why? Why not the clean? I don't get it. He starts explaining the concept of the formula. I don't want to hear this I want to know why the hell we are using 4 where it says SPclean. I turn and walk back to my desk muttering, he replys that maybe if I put up my hand like everyone else etc etc. Sure I can now agree with that, but in my poor mood it did not help things. I sit down and put up my hand. I repeat my question. He starts explaining how the formula works. I interupt and start to ask again why we are use the shale line value in the clean spot. he interupts me and tells me not to worry about the formula in the book.

That is the last straw in my brain. I have gone from frustarated to argumentitve and I know I am done, I know nothing is gonna help now. I leave. I get up and leave the class in a VERY pissed off state.

So unlike me. I can not believe how frustrated I got over the whole thing. So now I get to go back and apologize for my outburst and I still have no idea why he would put the values in the way he did. I also have no contact information for him so I can't even ask in private.

Summary: I handled it very poorly. He is smart. He is a lousy instructor in my books.

And that wraps up school and moves on to the love life.

Lisa and I are getting along well still. We are still enjoying each others company and she is making a lot of effort to see me when she can, which makes me feel pretty damned special. We have had a small conversation about where things might be going. Half of her wants to try and make something from this and the other half is scared. I can't say I blame her.

I think we will both be ok though. She makes me smile and makes me happy and obviously cares for me as much as I care for her.

What an emotional web we weave.