Continuation

Well as we can see I was not in the best mood when I wrote the last entry.

I am officially single, and as of last weekend after seeing her again to collect some stuff, it suddenly seemed so VERY final. Hit home pretty hard, I am sure for both of us.

The next few days were pretty bad, I was sad and feeling very sorry for myself. I talked to her on-line a couple of nights ago and it was very very hard and again or still I was sad. A couple days later now that some of the emotions have passed I am happy I chatted with her and told her how much she meant to me, even if we were not destined to be together.

I don't know if I totally agree with her reasons for breaking up, but in the end I guess I don't need to. They are her reasons and it takes two to make it work. I won't say we had a perfect relationship. I am not always or ever, perhaps, the best communicator. Maybe even part of me never thought it would work. I personally think that is a part of me that I don't like and a part of me from my past. Not perfect? yes. Workable? I thought so.

No matter.

At this time in a much less emotional state I have decided instead of dwelling on the break-up and how much I miss her, that I would focus on the past. That I would focus on when she was happy with us, when we were BOTH very happy with us.

Thanks for everything Shannon, know I love you.